Feeling good on the inside and out

    I am so excited to be feeling so good.  I went to a party over the weekend wearing a dress I had squeezed into this time last year, that I felt ok in and self conscious.  This year, I wore it proudly and felt like a million bucks.  It zipped effortlessly and I actually had to have it shortened to wear with my knee high boots.  I am far from "skinny" but I am absolutely less rotund.  I am liking how I look in pictures for the most part as opposed to cringing and looking the other direction.  But mostly I am proud of the internal stuff going on inside my body.  Last week I had a physical.  First one I have had in years.  I was nervous about it and actually switched doctors.  I was upfront about my weight issues and said I am aware of my size and need no reminders.  I have a constant internal reminder to myself.  I explained how I had lost 43 pounds in 15 weeks and what I have been doing.  She was fantastic and proud.  My blood work came back and it was great.  I should pre-empt this by saying I didn't have high cholesterol, sugar, pressure to start BUT these have always been things I think about in the back of my mind as an overweight person and especially the sugar b/c type 2 diabetes runs in the family.  Anyway, my numbers were phenomenal, "award winning" (her words not mine).  Anyway, it is a great feeling to know that the changes that are occurring outside my body are showing on the inside as well.  I feel more confident and I am even beginning to tuck in my shirt...whoa!  Hmmm what else?  I am 12 pounds away from a huge goal for myself.  I am hoping to hit this by Thanksgiving.  Initially the goal was Christmas but I keep adjusting as I go along.  I am 2 pounds from my Halloween goal which is almost a month away.  I think it's safe to say, I'll hit it as long as I don't have some sort of crazy attack in the middle of the Halloween section at CVS.  Speaking of which, I don't even know if I'll buy candy this year.  No one trick or treats here and last year we sold it to the dentist.  I'd rather just save the money so maybe we'll get some Halloween pretzels and call it a day just in case. Then my kids will have relatively healthy snacks after the fact.  I won't deprive them of candy but I can't keep it around b/c I will end up eating it when they go to bed.  It's just not a good idea.  Even though the sugar cravings are way better than before beginning 17DD I just don't tempt fate by keeping that stuff around.  So we'll have to figure something out so that I am not a Halloween grinch to my kids.  I think that's pretty much it.  I continue to keep going one meal and one day at a time.