It's halfway through Day 9 and it's been a little hairy around here. Kids all got up at the crack of dawn and were in quite interesting moods. We took a ride to the library this morning and came home for lunch. I definitely am finding it easier to have my meals at home and was looking forward to 3 square meals at home after all the eating out we did over the weekend. What a weird turn of events.
I have been talking to a variety of people in person, on FB and on the phone and have been hearing some interesting comments. I am sure they're meant to be supportive but instead are making me feel a little like the Kool ade man. This sketch from John Pinette epitomizes my feelings: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0q6Gc23ZtPA Yup that's how I sometimes feel. I am sure it's not meant to be mean but when you lose 10 pounds and people say they can really see it in your face, that's how it makes you feel. So instead maybe just saying, wow you look great. I'm seeing a difference already keep up the hard work. I guess beggers can't be choosers with support. And I do appreciate any and all of it but I had no health problems. No high blood pressure, no high cholesterol, no diabetes and my knee hurt one day in the rain from an old injury I had from a runaway wheelbarrow. Anyhow, it's a bit frustrating to hear it's for your health. Don't you think I know that? That's why I am doing it. For that and my kids. I am overweight but I am not a sickly person. Yes, I agree that later in life it could lead to more health problems and maybe that's what it meant but still it continues to make me feel like "am I really that huge that people think I might keel over and die of a heart attack?"...thus the kool ade man reference. So for the record I know why I am doing this. I don't need reminders. I will continue to plug along till I reach my goal. I am more than 10% of the way there already. Hope I didn't hurt anyones feelings. I appreciate support but I am a bit sensitive...it's a lot to share all these feelings. I hope everyone has a great Tuesday and I look forward to continuing my journey one meal and one day at a time.
Hey shannon, baby cakes, poopy bum....love it!!! Its funny how we gain weight from the ass up and lose it from the face down...lol. I think people really don't know the "right" thing to say when you tell them you are trying to lose weight...but I do believe ppl are generally supportive and try to say something nice, lol..although I know what you mean. It was like me and the big bones comment...lol...i so do not have big bones..maybe just medium, lol. For whatever anyone's personal reasons are for losing weight (mine is pure vanity), never allow anyone to jumble your mind or upset you. This jumble and upset is what got us in this mess anyway, lol..so now its up to us....for us....we are first!! I understand exactly what you are saying, it can be frustrating but we cannot tell people what to say, but we can choose to hear it however we want. Stay positive girlfriend...you are inspiring me too!! We got a goal to reach..then its octoberfest baby!! XOXO
ReplyDeleteJune, I know what you mean, I just had to vent. It was getting on my nerves and this is going to be a long road. Maybe I will see it differently when I am closer to goal but lord help me, I have a WAYS to go. I know it's up to me to hear it how I want. I will TRY to keep that in the back of my mind. Wish I wasn't so damn sensitive. Tomorrow will be a happier day. My lack of sleep isn't helping my attitude either :) And I don't understand the whole weight loss/gain thing. For me it goes straight to my tummy 1st but that's the LAST place I lose it. So annoying. So I guess I will have a really skinny face at the end of this journey ;) Lol
ReplyDeleteDon't get me wrong I have my own vanity reasons for wanting to lose weight as well. It's not a bad thing that I would actually like how I look in pictures again and not run by the mirror or look down.
I don't think people know what to say unless they've truly been in my shoes. But on a day like today anyone could have easily pissed me off.
Then there are the "bitches" like me who have to work to gain weight. It ain't any easier in the other end of the scale. "oh, you're soooo lucky to be so tiny!". Yeah, right. I have to buy TRAINING BRAS! WTF am I going to train them to do at almost 40???? I have to shop in the teen section. Like I want my 39 yr old ass to show when I bend over? NOT!!! LOL
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