Today has been another good day. I love getting feedback from friends who are reading my blog and sharing their thoughts with me. The cameradie is really what keeps me going. Recently I have been finding it really tough to balance fun with the kids & our friends with cooking a healthy and delicious dinner for the family. Everyone who knows us well knows that the wonderful witching hours from 4-7 are tough around here, especially when I decide to cook dinner in the midst of my children wanting love and attention. It's like how when the phone rings, your kids start screaming in the background as if all of the sudden they need your complete attention, when they were fine right before it rang. I have had to say no to some committments recently because it's too hard to keep on plan but I am trying to balance so I don't put everyone else on the backburner and neglect my friendships and support system. It's tough! This HAS to be my first priority. I mean it's my health for goodness sake and without that, what do I really have?! You know? I am at a place where it's this all or nothing mentality and I hope that people are patient with me as I go through this journey and realize that I love them exactly the same as I did before, I just need to love me the most right now and take care of me. If that means not talking on the phone as much or seeing friends for social events, I promise it's nothing personal. I am just so encompassed with what's going through my head and staying on track right now. I weigh in tomorrow and hope it's a good one. The scale budged another pound this morning which is so nice because for the 4 day plateau period I was getting really frustrated (yes I know it's normal but still frustrating). I took a stroller strides class this morning with a friend and it's a tough workout man but it's awesome! I am glad I went, pushed my 80 extra pounds (kids & double stroller) up those steep hills and ran a little more of my booty away. My daughter A actually got out and did some of the excercises side by side with me. I love her so much.
So that's pretty much it. I hope my buddies get it, and if you don't, I hope you get there soon. This journey is tough enough. I promise, I'm doing my best, but I need to come first and continue along one meal and one day at a time.
It's the same thing when on plane trips passengers are told to take care of themselves first before helping others. You can only be as affective as your limitations are in helping others or parenting. Being healthier and at the top of your game – physically and mentally – is key to success in those caregiver roles.
ReplyDeleteGreat point Dave, well said! And it's not as if I am not being a good Mommy in the meantime but some things naturally may go by the wayside in order to make me numero uno. Thank you for your feedback.
ReplyDeleteAfter a few weeks of following I've finally become an official "follower" and I EVEN figured out how to load a personal pic :) Now you HAVE to keep up the good work. Seriously, I've gained a few over the last few years-wonderful 30's and I'm trying to be good/drop a few. I've been enjoying your posts--you are doing so great!
ReplyDeleteI don't know who this is who's following...I can't see a pic either. Thank you for following and for the support. We'll support each other.
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