Day 16...Damn you godiva

  I made it through day 16 almost unscathed.  I had a great breakfast of cottage cheese with a nectarine and a great salad for lunch.  Then we hit the mall so I could torture myself in the dressing rooms of Sears and Macy's looking a few new bathing suits.  I have been feeling a little lighter and last time I tried on clothes at the Gap I was pleasantly surprised and ended up even coming home with a new workout outfit and a pair of jean shorts.  I was thrilled to be fitting into anything from the Gap without elastic waist, even if it was tight, it still buttoned.  It's the little things people.  So, I decided to venture into Sears because I know they carry Lands End and I usually like their stuff.  They were actually having a great sale and I found 2 polo dresses and 2 bathing suits that didn't make me cringe when  looked in the mirror.  Always a plus...right?  I wonder if you ever get to the point where you enjoy bathing suit shopping.  I get the feeling that no matter how thin you are, as a woman you always criticize your body so much harsher than anyone else truly would.  A little extra padding or a touch or cellulite or go forbid a stretch mark has you running screaming from the dressing room.  Anyway, I did find two bathing suits that will carry me through this summer feeling covered and as confident as I can.  I got a great deal on them too.  I had tankinis last year and am sick of tugging them down or having them float up when underwater.  I still like how they look better out of the water but running around with my kids, they're just not practical. I went to Macy's after and tried on a few miracle suits.  You know the ones that promise to make you look 10 pounds thinner for the cost of your left arm.  Seriously, the suits are nothing great and compared to the lands end ones they actually looked worse.  So lesson learned, I will stick to lands end, at least for now. 
     On the way back we walked by Godiva.  I am a member of their chocolate of the month club...surprise surprise.  All you have to do is sign up and 1x per month you choose a chocolate of your choice free of charge.  It's their awesome way of getting you in the door to buy more.  I joined when I was pregnant and enjoyed my free treat 1x per month ever since.  So I decided that I would give my treat to Abby and not let it go to waste.  I walk in all ready to pick it out for her and they offer a different free sample to me.  I pass it off to Abby and then realize I still have my free chocolate.  So do I walk out without my free chocolate, or partake and risk the possible approximately 200 extra calories in my day.  Fu&* it! I ate the piece of dark chocolate and savored every bite.  I enjoyed it and you know what, that 1 piece of chocolate is not going to make me gain a pound and I have been so religiously good for 16 days.  I wish I could say I made it all 17 without straying at all, but damn Godiva broke me!  I guess next month I should go while I am pms'ing because it's legal to have 1 piece of dark chocolate occasionally then (I think 1 per day).   I just went through this last week and did NOT indulge then so I felt like I missed out.  Maybe I am making excuses.  But I didn't buy a box and scarf it down in the parking lot.  Just 1 piece.  I am pretty sure I saw a common friend walking into Godiva as I was leaving and I sadly hightailed it out of there because I was embarrassed and ashamed that I had the damn chocolate in the first place...then I thought that person couldn't possibly be judging me as hard as I am judging myself.  So death to Godiva, I love & hate you all at the same time.  Tomorrow is day 17.  One more day till I get to enjoy some new foods for the next 17 days of cycle 2, one meals and one day at a time.