Wednesday, July 18, 2012

A long time since posting

I cannot believe that late October was the last time I posted.  Well, I guess looking back in hindsight, that's when life got complicated and busy again.  I started to prep for birthday and holiday season.  I will update you on where I have been in the previous months.  I am home full time with both of my children, which is the best, most rewarding job I could ever hope to have.  I love being with them and going on adventures together.  Recently, our family took a trip to California and traveled all along the CA coast.  It was amazing.  I worked really hard to lose 10 pounds the weeks leading up to the trip and did it, but unfortunately, 3 days into the trip I lost all motivation and my willpower was lost somewhere along the Pacific Coast highway.  Anyway, I put back on 7 of the 10 pounds in just 2 weeks.  UGH!  I know I can do it again and actually have lost most of it again since being back. but I am tired of losing and gaining the same 10 pounds.  I lost over 45 pounds but couldn't seem to get over a certain hump. 

Rewind a few more months and we'll go back to the Holidays of 2011.  I made a conscious decision to maintain my weight loss instead of trying to lose through January so I ate well and continued to do 17DD about 80% of the time.  On the weekends and special nights out I did what I wanted within reason and was able to keep the weight off.  But in February right around Valentines, I started to relax instead of tightening up the belt and slowly between Feb and May I gained back about 10 pounds.  These are the same 10 pounds that I just lost before the CA adventure.  So here I am again, pretty much at the same place I was last October.  I am still over 40 pounds less than I was when I began my journey, but I still have more to go. 

I know the types of foods to eat and the types to avoid.  I know I am an emotional eater and I have certain foods which trigger overeating.  For example, it's really hard to overdo it on kale salad and grilled chicken but put a bag of chips or plate of cookies in front of me and I can and will polish them off.  I don't know if this is something I will ever over fully overcome, or if it's just too ingrained to reverse.  That being said, I can try to be aware of it and think of the rewards and/or consequences as I sit down with whatever I am eating. 

The other piece of the puzzle is that we are considering having another baby.  I'd really like to lose another 20-30 pounds before I get pregnant.  I would be more comfortable and theoretically by the time I deliver I will be at the same place as I am now, as opposed to another 20-30 pounds heavier.  Every other pregnancy, I have begun about 10-25 pounds heavier than what I am now so at least I am a little less.  I am not worried about my risk of gestational diabetes, as I have not had it prior and am a very healthy eater.  But I don't want to put any additional strain on my feet, knees or back.  I feel good where I am.  For the most part things don't hurt, unless it's my time of the month.  Any little twinges I felt, went away with the last 10 pounds I lost. 

I don't want to put our family planning on hold for too long so I need to get my head in the game and get rid of at least 20 pounds through 17 DD again.  I know it works for me, it makes sense to me and I have a wonderful friend who has been endlessly supportive doing it along with me.  She is where I was this time last year and I couldn't be prouder of her.

So here I am again, moving forward, one meal and one day at a time.

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