Here we go again

I knew it was time to start blogging again and realized it, when I tried to remember where I left off the last time I blogged.  It was right around the time we decided we were going to think about having a 3rd baby.  Well guess what?  Surprise, surprise, I pretty much sneezed and got pregnant immediately. Believe me, I know how lucky I am in that arena of my life.  I have friends and family who struggled and tried for years to have a baby or experienced fertility issues after having a perfectly healthy and easy time getting pregnant the first time around.  Anyway, I got pregnant last August and the 17 day diet had to go on the back burner.  I know that it's possible to do weight watchers under a doctors care, but I honestly feel that this is the one time in your life when you should be able to not worry about your weight and just enjoy your pregnancy and the foods you love and cravings you may have.  Well boy did I enjoy.  A little too much I guess.  I gained 50 pounds during the pregnancy.  With the girls I gained 25-30 so I guess I enjoyed a lot more than I had in the past 2 pregnancies.  Oh well.  It got to the point where I refused to look down at the scale when I weighed in every appointment and preferred to live in ignorant bliss.  Well I don't think I would change it but I certainly had to pay the price after delivering my sweet baby boy last April.  I called my OB's office about a week after delivering to find out what my last weigh in was prior to delivering.  I actually had to step on the scale the morning I delivered(lucky me), so I definitely got my accurate number.  I wrote it down and said to myself "I will never be this heavy again."  And thank god about 30 pounds pretty much fell off me within the first month after delivering between the baby, nursing and having very little time to eat.  Then I began watching the calories but not really dieting and another 15 pounds came off between May & July.  At the end of July we left for a vacation to cape cod and my willpower went out the window and we ate more ice cream in a week then I think I ate my entire pregnancy :)  I gained back 5 of those pounds in a week and came home from a wonderful family vacation feeling defeated.  Have I not learned anything throughout this journey?  So it took a few more weeks for me to gear up and get my head in the game.  I am a huge advocate for nursing and was incredibly concerned about my milk supply dropping.  I weighed the pro's and con's and did some of my own research.  What I discovered was that there is no reason why I couldn't do a no carb/low carb diet as long as I was getting enough calories.  So I decided to take the plunge.  I started again on August 30th with a wedding 2 days later and tons of commitments with family and friends on the calendar.  Here's one thing I have learned friends, if you keep waiting for the perfect time to diet it will NEVER happen.  There is no perfect time with nothing going on in life.  Is it hard to diet with all of this stuff going on? Sure.  But it's reality and one thing I know is I can't stop living my life in order to be on this program so I stay on target and make good choices when I am out.  And when I eat out or splurge it deters my efforts.  A pound I have worked tirelessly to lose over several days has no problem finding its way back on my body with one splurged meal.  It's frustrating and tiring to be completely honest.  This is a struggle for me.  I know that I will never be a size 2 and I am ok with that.  It's not the way god made me.  So I just keep plugging along one meal and one day at a time.