Well here I am again, I began yet another "diet" I know I've heard it all before it's not a diet it's a lifestyle change, you have such a pretty face if you just lost some weight you'd be gorgeous and the ultimate it's for your health. Well here's the thing people, people don't change until they're good and ready. I am so angry with myself for letting this happen. Over the course of over 2 years between 99-01 I lost over 90 pounds! Yes, you read that right, 90! Somehow getting married, getting comfortable, letting my habits relax, having 2 kids, being busy etc. it all came back. It's so disheartening and depressing to think about. I have really tried EVERY imaginable diet out there: weight watchers, master cleanses, Jenny Craig, Nutrisystem, slim fast, the old fashioned diet and exercise. The way I was successful last time was mostly diet & exercise and weight watchers to take off the last 10-15 pounds. However time has gone by and I have grown a few years older (33 now) and it just doesn't seem to come off as easily quickly as it did the last time. Not that 2 years is quick, it's not but I feel like I have gained and lost the same 20-30 pounds a dozen times and can't get over that hump. I will never be a small person, it's just not in the cards, and I am OK with that. I don't need to be 110 pounds to be happy or healthy for that matter. I just want to feel better, have more energy, look better in my clothes and have more confidence. I don't know if I will ever get back to my lowest weight and that's just fine with me. I think it may be a goal that's unattainable for the time being. So you know what? I am going to take this journey 1 day at a time. I hope that you friends and family enjoy the ride. I am going about it differently, because I need support. In addition to doing the 17 day diet, I joined weight watchers and started this blog in hopes that by doing a multitude of platforms, I can stay accountable. I plan to weigh in every Thursday at weight watchers. I will NOT be posting that number, I just don't think it matters or is important but I plan to share if I lose, gain or stay the same. I also will be posting tips and things that are working for me. So buckle up and enjoy this long and bumpy ride.
Love,
S
your so cute! I'm proud of you already! Your right that it will be a long ride, but try to have fun with it and before you know it you will be at your goal!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Annie!! I REALLY appreciate your support. MWAH!
ReplyDeleteShannon, you will always be beautiful and perfect whatever size you are. It's the happiness in your head that counts though. When the happiness in your head is not there any more, that's the time you need to examine why. For so many of us sisters, it comes down to weight. All I can say is that do what makes you happy because the things that make you sad or uncomfortable are unlikely to be things you will continue when you've reached goal.
ReplyDeleteMuch love, as always, my lovely.
I love you Jo, thank you. Friends like you make this so much easier. It's so comforting to know others don't place the same expectation on me that I put on myself. But you're right, I am not happy where I am, I am not comfortable and I HATE how I look in pictures right now. For someone that loves taking pictures, that's not a good place to be. Thank you for loving and accepting me just as I am. xo
ReplyDeleteSo proud of you and think that you are very brave to share all of this! My thoughts will be with you and I KNOW you can do it!! You are one of the most beautiful and best persons that I know! Good luck!!
ReplyDeleteIt was kinda scary to share it Jen, I can't lie. But I find that putting the thoughts down on paper or screen therapeutic. I used to journal for years and stopped after having kids. No time I guess. This is something just for me. Thank you for your positive thoughts and vibes, I truly appreciate it.
ReplyDeleteJust think Bridesmaid Dress and photographs I'll have for the rest of my life :) That's right, you are going to be a Bridesmaid--well at least I hope you will! So there is some (hopefully) motivating news for you :) We will talk more later!SURPRISE! Xoxo
ReplyDeleteAww that's so exciting hip hip HOORAY!!! I am honored and you bet your AS* I do NOT want to be the "fat bridesmaid" so that's just one more piece of motivating news. I can't wait and I love you Lauren. SOOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!! xoxoxoxoxxo
ReplyDeleteI have always admired how confident you are in your body. I don't feel that way. I look in the mirror and often find more faults than I do positives. I love you how always laugh, smile and seem comfortable being you. I've liked that about you from the moment I met you. I am learning how to be comfortable in my body (as silly as that sounds at a size I won't mention)but it's true. I still look in the mirror and see the fat girl of 20 yrs ago (has it really been THAT long? Oh crap I'm old!!!) Hats off to you my dear friend. You'll succeed because you're ready!
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